im starting to doubt everything i have i dont know what to believe anymore..i dont know if i can actually trust myself to believe in anything anymore...i've done it before and i ended up hurt even worse than i've ever been in my life..i don't think i can trust someone with my future when they can't even put their past behind they keep going back to it...can i really trust someone that wants to have the past as the present? i really doubt i can...i wish things would be less complicated..i wish so much but can't have it...and i just keep getting hurt...i just want it to stop..and i don't know what to choose....
sigh...stupid life..i wish i woulda died at birth i would be in heaven by now i truly do...i've always wished that

ok it needs an update....hmmm

so far im stressing out as heck and tired.there's a lot going on and i dont even know wat to do...i keep eating mexican candy they are so addictive >.<

calculus:: im hoping n trying to get an A for the second quarter.....needa get on task asap

latin american history::freebie i feel so stupid there...welll like stupid for sometimes thinking im smarter....idk its just a wierd class...there's like all mexican n i dont feel right...asians made me this way lol .....jk...you know i love u guys...:)

physics II:: boring as heck....dont understand...thinking of dropping after 1 sem ends...n yea

english ap:: i like some discussions dont others...easy class just hate the essays

french IV ap:: its kool i dont get to see her more than i do or want...have major project on hands..

engineering:: we needa cram everything by dec 4th...lucky us -_-

us gov::way behind umm dont understand and dont care :P

others::: Unit Day was funny...i had fun...thinking of doing som stuff...so gtta get materials for that....hopin to spend thanksgiving with edgar....ummm finishing all hws n projects great -_- thats it

i feel like i am a failure..wait i think it means i truly am one...=? sucks i dont wanna do anything anymore i just want to be alone...